I look at my brother I look at my sister She looks so much like you And he looks like her I wonder what you see in me Do I have her nose She says I have your hands
I’m sorry it’s been ten years And I still ***** dance With this ***** sprite When I take these xans
Some times I think you ran Because you looked at the Drugs in my hands That she says look just like yours And couldn’t face the pain
Knowing we share the same veins I just hope you don’t think you Failed And I hope to God That you don’t look at me And feel That all your efforts Were to no avail
Yeah, as you can tell I still blame myself
But I look at my brother I look at my sister And I couldn’t picture Leaving their mother’s side Then still trying to attempt To call them mine
I know I sound selfish But you married another And called her child your son All the while
I wonder what it was I did Or didn’t do enough To no longer remain the glue That kept you at her side After all this time
What hurts the most Is you were able To call my mom your wife For twenty years of my life Yet only nine for my brother
He didn’t deserve to feel alone **** what I feel You left my little brother alone
I remember the nights You never came home And found a reason To tell yourself You couldn’t answer the phone
Those were the mornings I watched Adventure Time With my brother In our living room When it should have been you
Those were the days I prayed He would never have to grow up Without his father at his side Even though you tell yourself It’s enough that You’re “only one hour away”
I know You both were young And I don’t believe That either of you Every truly found love Within the arms Of each other
I know You only stayed together So long Because I was the first Child you had And so for her
You wanted me to be happy And I still hope one day You discover what that word means
I remember it I still see it in my dreams I think I saw it on your face That day you tried to teach me How to throw a baseball Back when we both were young
I never could quite catch Time and make it last Like a butterfly The effect caused me to crash
But I know You tried your best To be happy To smile when you didn’t want to And I thank you Dad
But I look at my mother And my eyes swell up with hate Only because you couldn’t see What I do in her Any longer
I know I was your first born child And my first smile Was the first time You saw hers in a while In something other than Your memories
I hope you never forget that moment But you broke My family into two
Two Thanksgivings Two Christmas’s Two birthday gifts at a time When we only ever needed one