a dull ache
I know what this is
this is hunger
hunger is good, in my mind
hunger means you are closer to pretty
closer to thin
but you will never be pretty
because no matter how many
pounds you lose
how many hours you go without eating
how many bones I can see
it will never be enough
never
I will still look in the mirror
and see nothing but ugly
nothing but fat
I still see nothing
I am nothing