I wish you could see how far I am sinking.
The despair in my heart is crying rain
that is flooding the cavities of my soul
and drowning the thoughts in my mind.

I am suffocating on the lies I tell to you.
Embellishing every quiet word with a sweet tone.
I am trying to be strong for you, like a mountain in nature,
but the waters of miseries are eroding my strength.

Why can’t you see the calls for help?
I am standing here, screaming in your face,
begging for the scraps of your mercy.
However, these screams are silent.

They are hidden in the times that you cannot reach me.
I see the font of your name appear on the blank screen of my phone,
but my mind feeds me lies that make me believe you don't care;
that I am just another burden in your life, so I leave it.

They are hidden in the darken bags around my eyes.
Sleeping is a mere missed memory that every bone in my body craves to feel again.
Instead I lie here thinking of every possible outcome that could be wrong,
and this is becoming a regretful, captivating habit that I cannot break.

They are hidden in the ways I stumble with my words.
I try to tell you what’s really going on in my mind,
but I can’t describe something I don’t even understand.
So instead I smile and say I’m okay,

when in reality,
my life is dissolving away.
And the sad part is:
I want it gone.