As I sit here fighting away more tears I wonder Do you remember all the things I wrote about you? Do you remember the poem called You that I wrote?
You probably don't
Even though you left me today it feels like it was forever ago For you seem so far away from me
Did you think about the fact that you come over early every thursday so you can get to youth? Wether I'm coming or not?
You probably didn't
Now every time you come over I will retreat I will retreat to my bedroom To the bathroom Or out the door So I can find somewhere quite to cry
Because your smile gave me life Your gaze gave me butterflies
You are utterly beautiful in my eyes But you don't see yourself that way
So you break And then you leave me Because 'you can't handle a relationship' I understand But my heart still shattered when I read those words
Tears instantly swelled my eyes and started to pour Just like rain on a lonely night
Now tonight as I go lay in my bed I will stare out my window At the wall Or the roof
Remembering your smile Remembering your laugh Remembering how safe I felt next to you Pressed into you And just near you
I will lay there as tears streak my cheeks As I remember the way my heart would beat just at the sight of you As I remember the way my heart would break when I saw the smile falter from your face
For I didn't want you to feel broken like me Because you deserve to be happy
You are beautiful to me And you always will be
Now as I sit here my thoughts will not leave you
If anyone asks for me to be theirs I will probably say no And I probably will for many years
But if I say yes I will not truly love them For I will forever remember when you were my puppy And I was your kitten