I don’t know why I feel this way about you.
You can be an ***, yet you can also care and make me feel alive.
Smile, giggle, lose myself in time.
You don’t know what to say at the worst times when I need you the most.
Yet when I don’t need you at all, you tell me everything I want to hear and more.
Do you say it to make me feel good?
Do you say it because you’re my best friend?
You should know by now I like the attention, love, and care you give me.
When you turn your head the other way and ignore me,
It pains me.
It feels as if you had taken the sharpest knife you could find, smothered it with lies, and stabbed me.
All of a sudden you have changed.
You go from being so close to me and holding me tight to pushing me away.
And with you, I feel as I’m pushing my own self away.