I've learned not to fight it when people show themselves the door. I've always been alone, why would that change now? You can call me what you want, know that I know it well. I'll keep returning keys to the places I'm not welcome anymore like I'm giving back the pieces I've taken, like I haven't given any keys myself. Why would anyone think differently when I act like I haven't? I don't blame you. Many times I know there's things I need to say, ways to show I care, and I can't. Or I won't? I don't know, but I'm trying. Forgive me, please. I'm sorry.
This isn't at all what I wanted my (actual) 200th poem to be, but I'm hurting bad tonight. I guess I've been disowned by someone I thought was family? I figured it was a typical up and down...but I suppose not. I don't know. I'm just gonna crawl in a hole the rest of the night. Yeah..