If you ask me if I believe in love, I do.
I believe that it exists, but it’s difficult in our generation.
A generation that lies, cheats, and does not know what VALUE is.

Everyone’s a little ****** up, a little confused or simply just don’t care.
….or at least try to act like it.
Examples? There are people who are in love with the idea of being in love.
There are people who NEED a relationship, they gotta have one right after the other
There are people on crossroads, maybe having more than one lover.
There are people who “go with the flow” on a mentality that whatever happens, happens.
There are people, a lot - who have been hurt.
And they tend to hurt other people too…..some even become the person that broke them.
There are people who see see love as cheesy instagram posts, surprises and whatever.
Everyone’s tryna make it last ‘forever’.
Everyone’s focused on these “relationship goals” or are so fed up to live up to the standards of the millennial.
But seriously,  what is love?

Do you know? Cause I don’t. All I know is I feel lonely and I want someone around, someone to be there when I have problems, someone who actually cares, listens, wants the best for me and wants to grow with me. Someone to hold, someone to kiss, someone to defy the odds. Someone to become my drug. Someone to make me feel undeniably ecstatic without a doubt. Someone to break my walls for, someone who understands me, my anxiety and how I can never escape it. Someone who is sensitive and most importantly someone who knows God.

It all sounds like mission impossible.

It’s all so crazy you know? To put your happiness into one person, to get used to someone.
Cause I expect it to come crashing down at one point and when it does,
It’s hell. Its sadness. It’s more depression.
But eventually I’ll get back up…..and then I’m back to square one.

It’s a cycle I want to end.