free as a bird with such a clarity followed by darkness, is this insanity? not feeling loved, not feeling wanted by thoughtconstructions and selfpitty you feel haunted feeling like paying a visit back to the old days should one put the middlefinger back up, wait even better, light a couple of jays? thats what the mind is figuring. just destruction and pain it feels so crazy one could follow that voice its so insane yet human conciousness has been identifying with that voice for so long the human bond to it feels so strong
i follow all this yet i feel too tired to let go
haha silly me, silly mind letting go is hard i find but then the next moment everything just.... just vanishes you feel perplex, what happened? it astonishes its quite simple, its the mind that wants to make it complicated light fills your body again, no more feelings of sufficating just light, bliss, happiness a kiss from above well just love..