so i changed everything, in the moment i cut off my hair, rearranged my room, put up pictures that haven't seen sunlight since That day, set a new set of goals, drank another glass of lemon water, cleaned the living room, the kitchen, washed the dishes, cleaned both bathrooms. i changed everything and microcleaned every surface in hopes to change my fate. but will it? i started to run out of things to say, places to clean, hair to cut, then that growing feeling washed over me again and numbness made their home inside my skin.