I want to feel nothing for you. I want to soak myself in Novocain when you pass me on the street. I want to not be blown away by the way your hips shift when you walk . I want to delete memories of you like they were data on a disk. I want to shove you so deep into a crowded backpack. That thousands of years could pass before I found you. I want to be like the neutered dog able to **** away and away with no consequence. I want to close my eyes and think of anything else literally anything else like dead bodies decaying or something along those lines. I want to be free from your chains and I mean that. You don't seem to understand that but I do.