You know my big heart that loves everyone? That heart has been so abused and broken.

You know my mind that comes up with so many ideas? That brain has been scared with mental self harm.

You know my arms that stay open for everyone no matter what? They have held someone that didn't deserve them and made them close.

I make my ride to school wait because I can't get out of bed because I'm tired from last night's tears and all I can say is "I'm sorry"

My feelings and thoughts are hanging me by a rope of self doubt and hate. Sometimes I think actually hanging myself would be less painful then living with this.

When I ignore you with my ear buds it's not because I dont like you, it is because I have them turned up all the way in an attempt to drown out the thoughts but they cannot get loud enough to shut them out because the thoughts always scream louder.