Honestly,

I feel like the devil been taking bribes,
By helping these spiteful people
Cause pain that I can't describe.
And lately, I've been craving
A dose that is not prescribed.
'cause I'd rather be the reason for
Ruining my own life.

And if I take my own life,
Please don't call it a suicide.
'cause suicide involves intention,
And lately, I can't decide.
It's a battle between my heart
And the depths of my own mind.
But if life hands me the blades,
Best believe, I will utilize.