Darkness closes in, yet light surrounds
Somehow
Confusion swallows my mind
My soul
Others laughing, loving
Not hurting, weeping
Not frustrated by inabilities of the heart
Of the soul
To reconcile beliefs with feelings
To find peace in chaos.
Which to lose?
The feelings, or the beliefs
Or both
Yes, both
Treat them equal.
Smash them to pieces.
Find a new way.
Black and white?
No
I'll find a third option
Search through the grey
Discover an alternative
Maybe grey will be correct
Maybe grey is
Happiness