I am dying inside
But no one noticed
I keep on smiling
To hide those tears.

I thought I found myself
Why I am so displeased?
Sometimes I wonder
Why do I exist?

I keep on insisting to myself to stay positive
I end up thinking those negative
I fought so hard to cast or hide my demons
And yet they whisper they won't
They're building their empire inside my heart
And a little time left to start conquering my soul.

I want to find myself, but I am not lost
I want to save myself, but am I drowning?
I want to help myself, but how?
I want to love myself, now.


-shakazaqui 12/12/17