Why are others mouths inclined to draw the pictures I try to scribble out that form inside my mind? A worthless, spineless creature- almost serpentine, wriggling on its belly baring cyanic, lachrymal eyes. I want to squirm from this Stygian tomb, disenthrall my thoughts from the shadows swimming with me inside this amniotic pool. I'm just a worthless fetus, a crumbling parasite and perhaps it becomes more obvious when I try to keep it out of sight, like a stench you try to hide; Dulcify decomposition with a rain of fragrant petals and slowly you'll come to find that magnolias smell of death, I can taste it slightly on my breath and it whets their appetite, the demons that stink of ammonia that gather every night orchestrating their symposia, their bellies full of laughter and drink while I'm full of minacious, eternal thoughts that writhe through plumbless wrinkles and ichor, questioning motivation and what it is I fight for. I can never find the right answers... My tongue won't grasp the words, they just slip back into their couthy throat where they can't be ignored; Left to die upon the shore, as fuscous waves that stain sand with rejection crash against my shattered form. My hands crack trying to flip the hourglass back and my eyes are constantly attacked by depression's thalassic pulchritude, a multitude of pains swaying to and fro in veins, begging for escape but trying to stay encased. Life nulls and denudes, my aptitude for feeling- my natural ability to hold things close without unreeling heartstrings. Keep reading, there'll be no eucatastrophe just endless pages of pointless animosity and tragedies accompanied by laugh tracks, everyone loves a jester with a proper act and I act a proper klutz futzing around with letters and spelling, trying to ensorcell any being to find my misery compelling.