"Brother, Sister, Mother, Lover." says a nurse trying to make me remember. Brother stands more silent than the dark winter night. Sister sits sniffling with tears in her eyes. Mother looks paler than deaths cold touch. Lover holds my hand spreading no feeling past her touch. "Cold, Warm, Wet, Dry." once again, a nurse so calm states in a calm monotone. Cold? Is that the feeling of the summer breeze upon my skin? I do not know. Warm?.....warm? I...Cannot remember....Need to...close my eyes. "Carson, Carson, Carson, Carson...." What is a carson? Why does a carson do?