Your vulnerability is so transparent i'm left with no option but to comprehend the authenticity that lies amongst these fragile words. I'm tripping over anger, flaws and pain, in between your words I swear to God healing has not yet come. "There's a difference between running and trying to put something behind you". It will hurt until it doesn't, it has torn you apart, but slowly you will realize the wound has scarred over. Wait for that moment, it will come. I have never felt so broken at the sight of your words. A human capable of calming each diabolical thought within you has seen life inside you and decided to crush you emotionally. I won't go back and 4th about how she weighed her happiness over yours within split seconds, love doesn't exist in doubt. You jump in not knowing if you might be caught or left to be comforted by the cold floor. I understood the cracks and the pauses in each sentence typed. Emotional vulnerability deserves sacred warmth from the one you least expect to hurt you. it will take time. Public humiliation can't be forgiven and forgotten but the heart you've introduced me to has the strength to forgive. No one is asking you to let go, there's no set time to do that. The only thing that your surrounding wants you to do is not die in the process of wanting to forget. Hatred has the ability of **** all traces of peace that exists from within. The wounds are real!! make sure you don't put a bandage over wounds that need nurture and time to heal because you'll see pain seeping through as a constant reminder that you quickened the healing process. Yes words can make the pain go away, but the moments shared will come rushing in different directions wanting to be remembered all at once. Every song, picture, letter or scent that triggers her existence will unfairly want to overwhelm you. Life is unfair, but don't bury yourself under all that pain...