I'm starting to feel alright today

maybe not alright, but different for sure

I have forgotten to hate myself upon waking

I skipped the spiral I'd wear under my smile

I misplaced my self loathing and I'm not exactly looking to pick it back up

I can finally eat without crying

I stare out the window and wonder
what's wrong with me today

even the sigh that escapes my lips is full of a heavy new normal

Am I allowed
to feel this way?

Has it really been long enough?