Is it bad that I'm losing feelings for you ?
The world keeps changing - but I had faith in you .
Your words don't match actions , I don't want no spoken proof .
You used to make my heart leap through the roof .
Things aren't the same , we grew up , at the same time - things started to change.
I was thinking you'll be mine for life - now I know , that isn't right.
I just wish you didn't  tell me that like every night.
I keep silent with all of my might .
Y'all don't understand , how I've been feeling inside .
I feel like a demon who cries - but a tear never leaves from my eyes
I try to yelp - but no fear ever leaves from my mouth .
I'm cursed with a blessing , of writing more than I talk .
Sometimes I have faith in the dark - since that is, what makes up most of my heart.
My life's full of light , but no spark .
A vast ocean of ****** fish - however, who is the shark ?
That's harsh reality - cloudy - I squint , because I'm trying to see .
If I should release this demon right up out of me.
Hate to say , I'm proud of - me being - what I hate to see.
I view obstacles & run straight at em , although - they could break my knees.
When life gets harsh - sometimes I wish I could just get up & ******* leave .
I don't wanna breathe , or take a deep breath .
**** being calm & relaxed - this pain coming back to back .
I think I'm starting to relapse .