I like him
and despite the mixed signals
I think he likes me too

I can't be too sure of anything these days
what if he's playing me
just like the other guys -
like the one who told me he loved me
right before he had *** with my brother
or the one from my poetry class
who enjoyed Keats and Tennyson with a healthy
dose of *******
or the one who told me he was in a band
(he didn't tell me he was in a marching band)

what if I am a stand-in
for love, for what's yet to come
what if I'm second best

what if.

what if we started going out
what if he vowed to only be mine
what if he loves me so much
he can never leave me
or let me leave him

oh my god

what if he goes crazy
and starts hitting me
and insists my friends are a bad influence
and insists we get married
and have kids

****.

if one day I feel like I'm ready to be in love
I will probably never see my friends and family again

but back to the story

He likes me
and I think I like him too.