(you are not mine)

I ride this wave alone.
surfboard.
crash.
drown.

up for air.
breathe again.
eyes open.
sunshine.

feet on sand.
i escaped the pull of pain.
within the waves.
of heartache.

i long for you.
to wrap me in a towel.
your arms.
cradle my small body.

strip out of wetness.
step into heat.
water washing away the fear.
i felt in the sea.

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(and if you were...)

crawl into sheets.
mattress underneath,
you on top.
all your weight.
pushing me into bliss.

rise.
from slumber.
your body against mine.
warmth and wetness meet again.

chew. swallow.
nourished by grains.
tea,
brew.
wake me further.

my day begins and ends.
with you.
i find my way.
back to your love.

troubled.
over-thinking.
you quiet the noise.
crippled.
you caress this soul.

i meet the sea again.
and you pull me free.
from the waves.
of a scarred brain.
that has seen evil.
and monsters.

you love me regardless.
of my foibles.
and.
you set me free.