When I go in search of meaning
I go blind instantly
so the search never begins
until I can ***** my way out  
into daylight where
I can see the sun shining &
staring like a fool
I'm blinded once again---
& if at night, I see the full moon
over dark streets  
hidden by a sheet of black
& I'm blinded once again &
w/o looking for anything
I ***** my way back to
where I can't find the switch
& so sit & ask myself
what does it mean to stand or to sit