it is again time
to start anew
whether that means
strict journaling
or silly diets
it's new.

and the one thing i need to cleanse
is making my start
stained

memories of you
of him
of her
can i let them go yet?
maybe not
or else
it will have been as if nothing
ever happened.

as if what happened
wasn't significant
and trivial.

and so i clutch on
into the new year
in fear that my story has gone
unrecognized
and praying that my pain may be erased
but not yet.

or that someone else
will make my fists drop them
one
by
one.
and then maybe then
can i forget them all.