there’s this nervous energy that’s welling up inside of me
more likely than not
caffeine induced
but it’s here and it’s here to stay

i only write about love or heartbreak
and that’s so upsetting to me
i feel that love and heartbreak make up a small part of me
maybe i just struggle with vocalizing it
so i write ...poorly

you know how people alway talk about having a feeling ‘creep up their spine’ in writing
i’ve even used that phrase before
but i don’t believe i’ve ever felt it
for me it’s always in my stomach and chest
a clenching
a pressure
a grasp
whatever it is,
i’m not a fan
i would much prefer something creeping the length of my spine
it sounds lovely