I’ve been contemplating Wether to love or unlove I’m not benefiting much Iv been thinking on this for sometime now & you Havnt proved my feelings wrongs. You have changed . From hurting me every day to somedays to not so oftenly but unexpectedly I agree you are not the same but what you’ve done remains in my memory. I have so many unhealed cuts in my heart . I forgive but I don’t ever forget and constantly over think about the heartbreaks I have cried more than I have smiled with you You have betrayed me more than prove your love towards me You helped me want sobriety You helped me fight temptation and control myself from Relapsing. You also helped me open a dangerous door in my life You taught me a new way to avoid the tears you caused Your negative actions sparked my brain You made me cry one day I called my connect I collected my **** I used to see if the tears went away And they did. My emotions went numb and I forgotten what you did Only high have I forgiven you Only high have I let go In reality Nothings ever been ok Thanks to **** I’ve made it this far Thanks to crystal 41314 Turned into a special day I’ve matured & Grown alittle Since I’ve been with you I see more clear and I’m beginning to see what’s best for me Maybe we weren’t meant to be forever but destined to change each other I’m frightened to officially let go I dedicated all my time and invested 6 Years Of my life on this boy I allowed him into my temple and experienced first time intimacy We created so much history to just turn it into ashes and believe it never existed To act like we never met And never loved each other till death did us part To see what was once our everything Be forced to be seen as nothing.