Loaded, up on pills
Feel fake, don't feel real 
Think they found my Achilles heel
My weaknesses are drowning me out 
My secrets have started coming out
I'm so dosed up 
Can't tell the difference
Between reality and make believe
That has me questioning 
What I'm doing to myself 
Why can't I put these pills 
back on the shelf?
Why am I destroying myself
And everything I stood for
Maybe it's cuz of 
what burns me at the core
Maybe it's the reason I'm still sore
The reason I still feel torn
Pop another pill 
so I can't feel a thing
Numb the pain 
Crumble each part of me away
The past locked in my head 
How the **** am I not dead?
So much blood I've bled 
But razors aren't enough 
To rip my skin in half 
Make sure it scars 
To remind me of all the hurt
I've caused
To remind me of the fall
How do I even come back 
from this at all?

©2017 Written By Benji James