Dec 2017
Inescapable loop
Of jealousy for the gift
That I didn’t choose to
Possess a heavy heavy load
No one but me can carry
The cause of my persecution
But every tiny human
Who knows cannot be
Ever greater than their shallowness
The light that is for giving
Isn’t my choice
But it is the only source
Of light that is ME
The celestial connection
Between all that I am and the
Ground I walk on
The glimpse into another’s eyes
To be the channel
To transmit their needs
I am but a tool
And being faithful to my destiny
Is the greatest strength
And the most terrible burden
I ever got to know
Of jealousy for the gift
That I didn’t choose to
Possess a heavy heavy load
No one but me can carry
The cause of my persecution
But every tiny human
Who knows cannot be
Ever greater than their shallowness
The light that is for giving
Isn’t my choice
But it is the only source
Of light that is ME
The celestial connection
Between all that I am and the
Ground I walk on
The glimpse into another’s eyes
To be the channel
To transmit their needs
I am but a tool
And being faithful to my destiny
Is the greatest strength
And the most terrible burden
I ever got to know
It has been a great two years -I started a peer support group, adopted it to the ethnic minority population I am working with, got their art into a gallery, heard more than once of gratitude for changing lives, gave all my soul to the agency I was truly in love with. Now I am leaving because I will not chose to endure the abuse. And I will make it seen. And I will sue that ******* who happens to be my supervisor, if I have to. For the sake of everything I believe in. And then... I will have to start from the beginning. And after I dig myself from under the rubble of my feelings, I will be ready and stronger
