Maybe I’m cracked
But not broken
My edges may be sharp
But I try to warn them not to get too close
Sometimes I stutter and mutter all the things I have to say
They’re a pile of jumbled words and I find it hard to arrange them in any order that You would benefit from
Sometimes I fall
I shatter
And I don’t make any sound
But my heart calls out for you and in the darkness
I wish upon stars
That you would hold me as i let go of everything I keep locked inside of me
Sometimes it’s hard to make sense of all the nonsense
Sometimes pieces of me are lost within the chaos and I look for myself in people
But I’m missing
And the world is haunting me, triggering me, aiming arrows at me,
Waiting to pin me down into the depths of the earth
Sometimes I’m nothing
Sometimes the void within me grows and it promises that someday it’ll swallow me whole and I beg it
Each and every night
To do so
Sometimes I wander through empty houses thinking they’re a home I belong to
Sometimes the hurt begs to love me
And I let it
I let it kiss my scars
I let it hold me as I weep my losses
I let it comfort me because no one has ever made me feel safe enough to lose myself in
I let it remind me that it’s okay to let go every once in a while
It’s okay not to be okay
It’s okay to lose control
To cry
To fall
To break
To hate and love
It’s okay to just be