I don't feel like shouting from the mountain tops
About the little and big
Extraordinary things
My life is opening up
Really right now or in this moment.

My throat is sore oncemore
A smoothie to make it feel softer
I've got the scent of you still penetrating my bones
And I glance up into the sun
Just like I do every time
As we rise in the morning
And admit to ourselves and each other
This will never be.

I think I better shower
Acknowledge the chip on my shoulder
As the high of the high fades
And I'm back at it, kicking the pavement
Knowing in my gut
There are those who turn the other way
When they look at me.

I don't have the answers
I never seem to.

I imagine you
At your desk
Piddling and taxing the time away
Tears welling in your eyes
After your run
And we say
At once
We both knew when it was done.

How sobering and rewarding
To be able to be on the same page
And I find myself feeling
When will I finally let this end
Comforted by your words of
You know it too.

The sun is out today
I wish I could do nothing
Hide away for a moment in time
And I feel a sudden zest
Of disinterest
And a well of emotion
Rumble and long to release inside of me.

Here we are again
And I know deeply
That this is just another chapter
Among chapters
To then come and go
But the ache
The ache wavers even so.