They say with time it shows signs of improvement

33 years despite everything I'm still waiting

I battle, I cry, I shout

I'm still waiting


I wake up hesitant to open my eyes

Hesitant to begin my day

Apprehensive who or what will trigger it

Apprehensive consistently

I'm still waiting


I'm hesitant to exit the entryway

Apprehensive of who is out there

Apprehensive of what will happen

Apprehensive that I can't get away

I'm still waiting


I'm hesitant to close my eyes

Apprehensive of what I will see, hear

Anxious of what I will dream

Anxious of shouting

Anxious I won't wake up in time

I'm still waiting


I'm hesitant to begin another day

I'm still waiting