Sometimes you take a beating and hide
You don't say anything they kick you when you're down. You don't say anything tolerate so many provoking you.
The day you stand tall, stand up for yourself confront those who are hurting you treating you bad. You enjoy the silence, one less road block obstacle to overcome. You take back your dignity you feel part of your self esteem return.
For years I haven't felt like myself so many judging so many putting down. I don't say much turn my back eventually you feel cornered and strike back. You know your mouth cuts like blades when words come out. You'd punch and swing but heavy handed
you control your hurt and pain. You don't wish it on others the burden makes you see black hard to breathe. You don't want to lose control, gaining it all back; don't want to lose it all again. One moment one second life never the same in a matter of seconds. You stay quiet because if you argue they will. You check them next minute they are playing victim.
Walking away keeping the peace so things stay normal not go crazy. These emotions make the mind hazy.