We have been here before.
My cardiac flesh scattered in pieces on the floor,
And your gumboots,
Grinding on them just to make sure nothing is still beating.
I had just turned into a woman, my 18th birthday,
When your lover revealed my significant other
Was her significant other.
Even though I left an angel for you,
A man who never did me no harm,
You just stood there, with eyes full of greed,
And uttered “baby, you’re all I need.”
Broken promises should hurt,
But only the first time around.
It doesn’t hurt that I put so much effort,
When my friend turned her back on me as I gave you a second chance.
Silly me I should have hated you like she did,
I should have opened my eyes to your intentions sooner
But no! you pumped your helium love into me
Got me up so high so I couldn’t see what’s deep down.
It doesn’t hurt that I called you more than you thought of me.
It doesn’t hurt that our firth has to be in a ****** and vague mid night text
My eyes have cried way too many times for you,
And what’s a scratch on a heart that you’ve stabbed over and over?
It doesn’t hurt me that you’ve left me again, probably for her, again.
It really truly does not hurt,
Although I wish it did.
Coz then it would prove that I loved you,
Coz I truly, wholeheartedly did.