Once I lost you
I lost me too
you were apart of me

but now your gone

trying to move on
with someone new
my mind is trying to find ways to stop the pain
but my heart is running back to you

Is moving on really stopping the pain?
How can you move on
when you don't remember how to feel ?
or love?

thats when I met him
honestly wish I never did
it was just two emotionless bodies
acting out "love"

I wish I never did the things I did
but I cant go back

wish I could

he was a big mistake
but not a regret

he walked into my life at the wrong time
but he was also the wrong guy to walk into my life in the first place

I hope someday I can feel the same love I did before
better yet even more

I hope one day I can fall in love again
this time I dont **** it up

and makes me forget the pain

and forget my past....especially him

so if someone ask me one day "how is he?" (my first love)
I can smile and mean it and say "hes fine"
without caring or feeling triggered
every time someone mentions his name
better yet
or "who's?"