when you feel an episode coming, shut down. shut down from everyone. deactivate your facebook. don't talk to anyone for days. keep on staring at that wall like it will magically give you answers.shut down until you feel the void inside of you lessen its intensity. until you calm down.

2. drink until all you can feel is the food that's coming up your throat waiting to be vomited at any nearby gutter.

3. stay clean. and then relapse a couple of months later.

4. tell everyone who will listen about how you "feel" stuck but in reality you just can't do anything about your current situation, therefore making you stuck.

5. doubt everyone who even tries to show the tiniest hint of their ability to be able to love you.

6. drill into your head and accept that you are not easy to love. and that you can't demand for it.

7. if you really want to survive, ignore all of this. these are the things that we do when we feel alone. when we feel that no really can love us. but they do. and they can. and they're out there.