Looking back see where I was
Lost in translation
Voice silenced by noise
So much fear and anxiety
Consuming life
Not sure wanted to live
Not sure I could die
Stuck in limbo of heart and mind
Found ways of hurt to self medicate
Too many pills
Destructive measures
Toxic relationships
Carried around the remnants of those breaking treasures
A lot of work to heal the wounds
Another view
Holistic route
Couldn't go on with no sense of worth
Too many years felt dead from birth
Shy child scared to talk
Wanted to listen
Thought my opinions be retort
Joked about the shyness
Thought **** it I'll speak
Whatever I did was seen as weak
Still have a way to go
But now I hope
Instead of wallow
Heart made hollow to fill back up
Feel my love is a steady cup
In time may overflow
Be myself
Not feel obliged to run with the herd
Accepting difference
Wanting to make it so
Help those who relate
Have faith to grow
Might not seem much even if it's just
To share words about lonely worlds
Others may know
not so alone