I have nothing to write,. My mind has become liver mush,. Eaten by some fat man in Russia,. I have to say that it was more ******* than anything,. To have gone what I went through,. Being treated like a pet,. Stuck in the closet only to be petted when wanted,. Never on my own time was i accepted,. Now I just wait for something like a treat,. But my mind is blown,. Scattered inside my cranium,. Like the 1980s drug propaganda commercial,. Let the Russian man have his fun,. I have no idea what any of this **** I wrote means,. I am just pressing my fingers onto the keys,. Waiting for the leash to be let of me,. So I can go to the kremlin,. Take pictures and make sense of what the fat man sees,..,.