Angst and absurdism. We struggle to find meaning. We appeal to a god who never answers and yet we appeal to him again and again. We plead for our loved ones and we make promises we will never keep to a being who does not exist and will never answer. Only death brings relief and reward and Camus' challenge to all was to live joyously even as we know it ends in farce. No matter what at some point you are gone. Forever. If our lives are meaningless then why not enjoy the moments. But god will never answer because he is not there. So life is a Pause.