I think I might take to eating more chile verde or replace my mattress with a bed of sunflowers or compose a poem using sopita de letras, gluing every word on the refrigerator and kitchen counters or learn how to play La Llorona on acoustic guitar, and perform it at an open mic karaoke bar in a distant town of people I don't know or wear a white pillowcase over my head and call myself a ghost whisper all my secrets to strangers on the phone or take a right turn instead of left or climb a wall, or fall in love