Patiently I wait for the pain to stop

For the blackness to overwhelm my fractious senses

For death to soothe my destroyed emotions

For silence to put an end to my indifferent pretenses





But even drug induced comas

or the chance of life, twice

Nor leaving my children or those who proclaim to care

are enough to make me want to remain here





I lost my daddy, Eric, Mr T

I betrayed myself & fell apart

I thought the DNA results would set me free

and mend my broken heart



but the universe unfolds, as indeed it should

although not always as we'd like or desire

and one day when I look back on this episode of life

I'll see that it was simply not my time, yet, to expire