My home used to have a heartbeat; it pulled me tightly to its chest. My home smelled like smoke, smoke and vanilla and earth. I roll over in my bed, reaching. I'm always reaching for something. Only a balled up comforter and sheets, they should've been washed yesterday. I keep thinking I'll reach and feel home, there will be warmth on the bed again-- gentle breathing to sing me to sleep.
Sleep became futile, my arms made of lead. Pinning me to the cold, this residence is not my home. I plead for my arms to rest, but my fingertips keep stretching; as if they could stretch into the past and pull my home from the rubble. The remnants of a lost foundation; if my fingertips could mend. My home was left behind in the wake.