time was spent writing and in that I thought it's been a while
I was counting down the years looking at my fingers two hands not enough to contain all of it
a palm full of life two palms full of life three... and (well, I'd reverse or continue but my age should remain a secret)
but after so many handfuls there were some more maybe too many maybe not much or perhaps were there any?
some palmfuls of life and I realize that maybe I need to be a little kinder
looking past the now remaining stuck in fear fear of what may come what may be said
I realize that is not good not healthy and I wish that above all else I regain my strength to live as fully as I wish as fully as I want to be remembered
but it is hard and I know it takes time patience skill to bring everything I have up to the standard I want to reach
so I stay clustered in my room preparing myself rejuvenating myself re-motivating myself to try be better than who I am
apparently motivation is like showering so it's something that needs to be pursued not done once and forgotten forever