I'm sorry that I start to panic when someone touches me especially a guy even though if its in a friendly way I just can't help to flinch I always think about the people that hurt me in the past
I am sorry that I constantly break down I cant control my mind for consuming my emotions my mind is always at war with my heart I cant help to get flash backs of the past of what they did to me
Im sorry for hiding my feelings I get nervous to tell you because Im scared of upsetting you I had people that I upset when I always told them how I felt I'm also not an open book I even feel vulnerable just someone looking at the content of the book
I am sorry that I always ask for reassurance Im just trying to get it memorized in my head so I can believe you I want to make sure your being honest your answers dont change and you mean it People drilled bad things into my head so I cant help it
I am sorry for constantly apologizing I always think its my fault I grew up people putting the blame on me sometimes I can't tell if its my fault or not