I miss my best friend. I miss being able to talk about anything and everything. It was what I lived for. I leaned too far though. I depended on you to cheer me up and lie and that was wrong of me. I am so sorry. I am sorry you have not had an easy life and you feel so alone sometimes yet I'm even more sorry that you still feel the need to lie and put others down because you're so insecure about the great unbearable truth being revealed. We have gone our separate ways and nothing can be the same as it ever was. Nor do I want or need that. I do not need you. I do not need lies to give me confidence. I have me and that's just fine. I have done great without you. I cannot tell you any of this though because it does not matter. You never truly did. You ruined me