I knew I fell for you
When I heard your voice
Walking up the stairs
The second floor of the apartment
I was scared
To look in your direction
Our eyes met for a split second
Feeling sort of sick
I couldn't help it
Nervousness hit
I sat down and watched the room
Loading a bowl
I listened without full comprehension
Of what Impact you'd have
On the rest of my life
Scared and vulnerable
I lured you to a cigarette
Talking for an hour or so
Waiting for time to go
As it was still when watching you
I felt admired
My best friend speaking highly of me
And a plethora of personality
Surrounding me
I think I was grateful
Drinking absinthe to numb
What I knew to become
The last bit of myself to flee
I offered you a ride home
Drunk but still sure
To get you home safe
Throwing up in the parking lot
I knew to be your place
We left that night
You had most likely other plans
Knowing you'd see me again
I couldn't resist you
But who could really?
You were the trees
The few I had known
I waited for you
Hurting me then helping
Turning me seldom
So it seemed
I was inlove with you
Thinking I'd have to leave
That this was bad for me
And it would bring pain
I couldn't let fear rule me
But you gave me that
The fearlessness
At least I had thought
I knew you loved me
Taking me back now
Are the images in my head
Painted beautifully
I still can't relax
Please come back