I was nearly ***** close to 10 times
when I was younger than 13.

I should have let them, as they all slipped into my bed and started fondling me,

but my devout christianity pulled me away.


now I'm even more stunted than I would have been had I just let them ****
my smooth 12 year old skin.

all women are predators in that regard--

but I see it now as preparation