I wake. Stray beams of sunlight Leak through the window that The curtains failed to seal. There is a welcoming warmth to these beams Licking at my face. It singes my skin just a little too much To remain in bed.
I miss her. The smell of her hair faintly seeps Through the pillow we'd lie on When watching netflix shows. If I indulge too much, the scent fades. If I don't delve in it at all The what use is the smell?
Yet she hasn't gone anywhere - only physically. I am yearning for memories that haven't been created yet. I am longing to come back before I have even left.
The duvet is a little too warm, The room just slightly too cold. The coffee brewed in 2 minutes Or less is neither sweet or Bitter enough - the hum Of the seemingly inept laptop cooler Is neither annoying or comforting Enough for me to want to replace it.
The tinge of impermanence in all this Leaves something to be desired. I don't want to go - But I can't miss her if I don't. I made the choice to leave this place Because I had no reason to stay.
I now regret that. As soon as I decided to go, Life gave me a reason not to.
The taste of this conflict Tastes too much like the irony of life.
Have you ever felt the bittersweet taste of knowing that you'll miss an instance - before it is even gone?