The day you left me was the beginning of a daylight nightmare.
A nightmare I faced while I was wide awake.
All I remember is your voice...
Echoing in the hollow depths of my memory
December came with a choice, I remember the agony of Christmas
I remember calling you when I had already left.
But it is you that had left me firstly...
And humiliated me with a friend in my face on Christmas eve...
How great was the love for you I had...
I have never forgotten you, I don't want her to see this for she will be heart broken.
I try not to be what you were to me cause she loves me like I loved you.
You'll read this in secret I know, cause by another man you're taken.
I will keep it short so that you finish reading before getting caught.
But I have much to remind you cause I still live in our past.
Knowing we will never have a future.
What was it about you that I loved so much?
Was it the ***, the blood, or the freedom?
I still know not, you were too great to remain mine.
Great things are meant to be shared...
So I shared you with many including a friend.
I want to know why, why I could not stop loving you.
No matter how you lied and betrayed my trust.
It was more than lust...I still clang to you
Like a baby baboon to its mother.
When you were in bed with another man...I could vividly feel it.
You really know I did, I could feel your gasps and sighs as you gave in to another.
I remember how insane it is, how insane it was and how insane it would've been now.w
We were too insane for each other, for just like you, I had a ferocious appetite
And I only wanted to quench my thirst, but you satisfied your enormous hunger by others.

The rest I would like to write while I am looking in your eyes.
Maybe kiss you for the last time cause I never said goodbye.
Forgive me for that cause I also have forgiven you,
For cheating me and teaching me how to share