Tell me, What do you see when you look at me? Does this look healthy to you?
I am At my breaking point. I have no way of coping with this. All I think about day in, day out, is about how whether I am going to fail.
I can't fail. I have been brainwashed into I have been told since I was very young that I need these to be happy. I am not happy.
This is a system rigged against me against us against people who cannot control People who cannot stay calm. People like me are falling drowning in expectation fear of failing a fear of the future.
Call me lazy. You may call me lazy but I am so exhausted. Working part time revising panicking because this is my everything. I have no time to be happy or be productive. All there is time for is stress and tears and I am not happy.