I'm just exhausted,

I can't bear to feel these words being stuck so far
down my throat anymore
I want to speak but the words will not escape
I feel trapped in my own skin
My blood boils,
I'm getting sick from the heat
I can't escape my thoughts
I can't eat, can't sleep

I'm sorry that I didn't tell you sooner
I'm sorry that I just let you think
That I was fading with no explanation
Not kissing back,
Not speaking much,
I don't know what else to do

I'm exhausted,
But I still love you.