No special card, no brand new bill No waiting to make the phone call. Too much time on my hands today Too many thoughts around me.
Mothers Day. My Mommie’s gone. Now I’m the Mama of this family. Why do I feel such a little girl, My emotional shoelaces untied and tripping me.
Amazed at why we do what we do, I knew one day I’d live to regret it- The Sundays just too busy to call, The failure to find a moment for writing.
That time is now, and I’m battered with guilt I can’t seem to talk myself out of. If only I knew she’s forgiven my lapses Maybe the punishment finally could end.
I dropped everything and flew to her side When death took her husband of just a few years, Again when the ****** who lived up the street Almost succeeded in killing her soul.
It’s the everyday thoughtfulness where I fell down, The “Hi! How are you - nothing’s much new.” Not finding a way to be there twice a year Instead of every other, that made me a failure.
Not a day passes that I don’t think on her Though many had done so while she was alive. I look on her picture in longing and sorrow And hope that she know I now see what I’ve lost.